A - AA's first step was derived largely from my own physician, Dr. Silkworth, and my sponsor Ebby and his friend, from Dr, Jung of Zurich. I refer to the medical hopelessness of alcoholism -- our "powerlessness" over alcohol.
The
rest of the Twelve Steps stem directly from those Oxford Group
teachings that applied specifically to us. Of course these teachings
were nothing new; we might have obtained them from your own Church.
They were, in effect, an examination of conscience, confession,
restitution, helpfulness to others, and prayer.
I
should acknowledge our great debt to the Oxford Group people. It was
fortunate that they laid particular emphasis on spiritual principles
that we needed. But in fairness it should also be said that many of
their attitudes and practices did not work well at all for us
alcoholics. These were rejected one by one and they caused our later
withdrawal from this society to a fellowship of our own -- today's
Alcoholics Anonymous.
Perhaps
I should specifically outline why we felt it necessary to part
company with them. To begin with, the climate of their undertaking
was not well suited to us alcoholics. They were aggressively
evangelical, they sought to revitalize the Christian message in such
a way as to "change the world." Most of us alcoholics had
been subjected to pressure of evangelism and we never liked it. The
object of saving the world -- when it was still very much in doubt if
we could save ourselves -- seemed better left to other people. By
reason of some of its terminology and by exertion of huge pressure,
the Oxford Group set a moral stride that was too fast, particularly
for our newer alcoholics. They constantly talked of Absolute Purity,
Absolute Unselfishness, Absolute Honesty, and Absolute Love. While
sound theology must always have its absolute values, the Oxford
Groups created the feeling that one should arrive at these
destinations in short order, maybe be next Thursday! Perhaps they
didn't mean to create such an impression but that was the effect.
Sometimes their public "witnessing" was of such a character
to cause us to be shy. They also believed that by "converting"
prominent people to their beliefs, they would hasten the salvation of
many who were less prominent. This attitude could scarcely appeal to
the average drunk since he was anything but distinguished.
The
Oxford Group also had attitudes and practices which added up to a
highly coercive
authority. This was exercised by "teams" of older members.
They would gather in meditation and receive specific guidance for the
life conduct of newcomers. This guidance could cover all possible
situations from the most trivial to the most serious. If the
directions so obtained were not followed, the enforcement machinery
began to operate. It consisted of a sort of coldness and aloofness
which made recalcitrants feel they weren't wanted. At one time, for
example, a "team" got guidance for me to the effect that I
was no longer to work with alcoholics. This I could not accept.
Another
example: When I first contacted the Oxford Groups, Catholics were
permitted to attend their meetings because they were strictly
non-denominational. But after a time the Catholic Church forbade its
members to attend and the reason for this seemed a good one. Through
the Oxford Group "teams," Catholic Church members were
actually receiving specific guidance for their lives; they were often
infused with the idea that their Church had become rather
horse-and-buggy, and needed to be "changed." Guidance was
frequently given that contributions should be made to the Oxford
Groups. In a way this amounted to putting Catholics under a separate
ecclesiastical jurisdiction. At this time there were few Catholics in
our alcoholic groups. Obviously we could not approach any more
Catholics under Oxford Group auspices. Therefore this was another,
and the basic reason for the withdrawal of our alcoholic crowd from
the Oxford Groups notwithstanding our great debt to them. (N.C.C.A.
'Blue Book', Vol. 12, 1960)
Bill
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