A - In those days we were associated with the Oxford Group and one of its founders was Sam Shoemaker and the Group was meeting in Calvary Church. Our debt to the Oxford Group is simply immense. We might have found these principles elsewhere, but they did give them to us, and I want to again record our underlying gratitude. We also learned from them, so far as alcoholics are concerned, what not to do -- something equally important.
Father
Edward Dowling, a great Jesuit friend of ours, once said to me,
"Bill, it isn't what you people put into A.A. that makes it good
-- it's what you left out." We got both sets of notions from our
Oxford Group friends, and it was through them that Ebby had sobered
up and became my sponsor, the carrier of this message to me.
We
began to go to Oxford Group meetings over in Calvary House, and it
was there, fresh out of Towns Hospital, that I made my first pitch,
telling about my strange experience, which did not impress the
alcoholics who were listening. But something else did impress one of
them. When I began to talk about the nature of this sickness, this
malady, he pricked up his ears. He was a professor of chemistry, an
agnostic, and he came up and talked afterward.
Soon,
he was invited over to Clinton Street -- our very first customer. We
worked very hard with Freddy for three years, but alas, he remained
drunk for eleven years afterward.
Other
people came to us out of those Oxford Group audiences. We began to go
down to Calvary Mission, an adjunct of the church in those days, and
there we found a bountiful supply of real tough nuts to crack. We
began to invite them to Clinton Street, and at this point the
Groupers felt that we were over doing the drunk business. It seemed
that they had the idea of saving the world and besides they'd had a
bad time with us. Sam and his associates, he now laughingly tells me,
were very much put out that they gathered a big batch of drunks in
Calvary House, hoping for a miracle. They put them upstairs in those
nice apartments and had them completely surrounded with sweetness and
light but the drunks imported a flock of bottles and one of them
pitched a shoe out of the apartment window and it went through a
stained-glass window of the church. So the drunks were not exactly
popular when the Wilsons showed up.
At
any rate, we began to be with alcoholic all the time, but nothing
happened for six months. Like the Groupers, we nursed them. In fact,
over in Clinton Street, we developed in the next two or three years
something like a boiler factory, a sort of clinic, a hospital, and a
free boarding house, from which practically no one issued sober, but
we had a pile of experience.
We
began to learn the game, and after our withdrawal from the Oxford
Group -- a year and a half from the time I sobered in 1934 -- we
began to hold meetings of the few who had sobered up. I suppose that
was really the first A.A. meeting. The book had not yet been written.
We did not even call it Alcoholics Anonymous; people asked who we
were and we said, "Well, we're a nameless bunch of alcoholics."
I suppose that use of the word "nameless" sort of led us to
the idea of anonymity, which was later clapped on the book at the
time it was titled.
There
were great doings in Clinton Street. I remember those meetings down
in the parlor so well. Our eager discussion, our hopes, our fears --
and our fears were very great. When anyone in those days had been
sober a few months and slipped, it was a terrific calamity. I'll
never forget the day, a year-and-a-half after he came to stay with
us, that Ebby fell over, and we all said, "Perhaps this is going
to happen to all of us." Then, we began to ask ourselves why it
was, and some of us pushed on.
At
Clinton Street, I did most of the talking, but Lois did most of the
work, and the cooking, and the loving of those early folks. Oh my!
The episodes we had there! I was away once on a business trip (I'd
briefly got back into business), one of the drunks was sleeping on
the lounge in the parlor. Lois woke up in the middle of the night,
hearing a great commotion. One of the drunks had gotten a bottle and
was drunk; he had also gotten into the kitchen and had drunk a bottle
of maple syrup and he had fallen into the coal hod. When Lois opened
the door, he asked for a towel to cover up his nakedness. She once
led this same gentleman through the streets late at night looking for
a doctor, and not finding a doctor, then looking for a drink,
because, as he said, he could not fly on one wing!
On
one occasion, a pair of them were drunk. We had five, and on another
occasion, they were all drunk at the same time! Then there was the
time when two of them began to beat each other with two-by-fours down
in the basement. Then one night, poor Ebby, after repeated trials and
failures, was finally locked out one night, but lo and behold, he
appeared anyway. He had come through the coal chute and up the
stairs, very much begrimed.
So
you see, Clinton Street was a kind of blacksmith shop, in which we
were hammering away at these principles. For Lois and me, all roads
lead back to Clinton Street. (Manhattan Group, 1955)
Bill
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