By Dr. Bob Smith
September
1948, AA Grapevine©
It
is gratifying to feel that one belongs to and has a definite personal
part in the work of a growing and spiritually prospering organization
for the release of the alcoholics of mankind from a deadly
enslavement. For me, there is double gratification in the realization
that, more than thirteen years ago, an all-wise Providence, whose
ways must always be mysterious to our limited understandings, brought
me to "see my duty clear" and to contribute in decent
humility, as have so many others, my part in guiding the first
trembling steps of the then-infant organization, Alcoholics
Anonymous. [AA began June 10, 1935, with the start of Dr. Bob's
lasting sobriety. He died November 16, 1950.]
It
is fitting at this time to indulge in some retrospect regarding
certain fundamentals. Much has been written; much has been said about
the Twelve Steps of AA. These tenets of our faith and practice were
not worked out overnight and then presented to our members as an
opportunist creed. Born of our early trials and many tribulations,
they were and are the result of humble and sincere desire, sought in
personal prayer, for divine guidance.
As
finally expressed and offered, they are simple in language, plain in
meaning. They are also workable by any person having a sincere desire
to obtain and keep sobriety. The results are the proof. Their
simplicity and workability are such that no special interpretations,
and certainly no reservations, have ever been necessary. And it has
become increasingly clear that the degree of harmonious living that
we achieve is in direct ratio to our earnest attempt to follow them
literally under divine guidance to the best of our ability.
Yet
there are no shibboleths (which means "long-standing formula,
doctrine, or phrase, etc., held to be true by a group) in AA. We are
not bound by theological doctrines. None of us may be excommunicated
and cast into outer darkness. For we are many minds in our
organization, and an AA Decalogue (which means "Ten
Commandments") in the language of "Thou shalt not"
would gall (which means "irritate") us indeed.
Look
at our Twelve Traditions. No random expressions, these, based on just
casual observation. On the contrary, they represent the sum of our
experiences as individuals, as groups within AA, and similarly with
our fellows and other organizations in the great fellowship of
humanity under God throughout the world. They are all suggestions,
yet the spirit in which they have been conceived merits their
serious, prayerful consideration as the guidepost of AA policy for
the individual, the group, and our various committees, local and
national.
We
have found it wise policy, too, to hold to no glorification of the
individual. Obviously that is sound. Most of us will concede that
when it came to the personal showdown of admitting our failures and
deciding to surrender our will and our lives to Almighty God, as we
understood him, we still had some sneaking ideas of personal
justification and excuse.
We
had to discard them, but the ego of the alcoholic dies a hard death.
Many of us, because of activity, have received praise, not only from
our fellow AAs, but also from the world at large. We would be
ungrateful indeed to be boorish when that happens; still, it is so
easy for us to become, privately perhaps, just a little vain about it
all. Yet fitting and wearing halos are not for us.
We've
all seen the new member who stays sober for a time, largely through
sponsor-worship. Then maybe the sponsor gets drunk, and you know what
usually happens. Left without a human prop, the new member gets
drunk, too. He has been glorifying an individual, instead of
following the program.
Certainly,
we need leaders, but we must regard them as the human agents of the
Higher Power and not with undue adulation as individuals.
The
Fourth and Tenth Steps cannot be too strongly emphasized here - "Made
a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves...Continued to
take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it."
There
is your perfect antidote for halo poisoning.
So
with the question of anonymity. If we have a banner, that word,
speaking of the surrender of the individual - the ego - is emblazoned
on it. Let us dwell thoughtfully on its full meaning and learn
thereby to remain humble, modest, and ever conscious that we are
eternally under divine direction.
Alcoholics
Anonymous was nurtured in its early days around a kitchen table. Many
of our pioneer groups and some of our most result full meetings and
best programs have their origin around that modest piece of
furniture, with the coffeepot handy on the stove.
True,
we have progressed materially to better furniture and more
comfortable surroundings.
Yet
the kitchen table must ever be appropriate for us.
It
is the perfect symbol of simplicity. In AA we have no VIPs, nor have
we need of any. Our organization needs neither titleholders nor
grandiose buildings. That is by design.
Experience
has taught us that simplicity is basic in preservation of our
personal sobriety and helping those in need.
Far
better it is for us to fully understand the meaning and practice of
"thou good and faithful servant" than to listen to "When
60,000 members [in 1948] you should have a sixty-stories-high
administration headquarters in New York with an assortment of trained
'assistants' to direct your affairs."
We
need nothing of the sort. God grant that AA may ever stay simple.
Over the years, we have tested and developed suitable techniques for
our purpose. They are entirely flexible.
We
have all known and seen miracles - the healing of broken individuals,
the rebuilding of broken homes. And always, it has been the
constructive, personal Twelfth Step work based on an
ever-upward-looking faith that has done the job.
In
as large an organization as ours, we naturally have had our share of
those who fail to measure up to certain obvious standards of conduct.
They have included schemers for personal gain, petty swindlers and
confidence men, crooks of various kinds, and other human fallibles.
Relatively,
their number has been small, much smaller than in many religious and
social-uplift organizations. Yet they have been a problem and not an
easy one. They have caused many an AA to stop thinking and working
constructively for a time.
We
cannot condone their actions, yet we must concede that when we have
used normal caution and precaution in dealing with such cases, we may
safely leave them to the Higher Power.
Let
me reiterate that we AA's are many men and women that we are of many
minds. It will be well for us to concentrate on the goal of personal
sobriety and active work.
We
humans and alcoholics, on strict moral stocktaking, must confess to
at least a slight degree of larcenous (which means "characterized
by the wrongful taking of the personal goods of another")
instinct.
We
can hardly arrogate (which means "to assume to ourselves without
right") the roles of judges and executioners. Thirteen grand
years! To have been a part of it all from the beginning has been
reward indeed.
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